- Tony finds he has been craving hot sauce for the last several weeks. This is unusual for him, and he is convinced it is his body's way of trying to get rid of the cancer...LOL!
- Even though I am in nursing school, I am now finding it difficult to say that word "cancer," because now it pertains to my husband. Heck, even "carcinoma" sounds more appealing than "cancer." Perhaps we could make a code word for it instead. "Yeah, I'm going to get a test done. You know, for my 'hibbety-jibbety'"...followed by a knowing wink.
- Now that we know what this is, we want it gone. Yesterday. Alas,
there are diagnostic tests and waiting to be done. We both have to restrain ourselves from screaming, "AGHHH!! GET IT OUT!!!" Here again, my imagination runs amok and I picture the alien that pops out of the guy in the Spaceballs movie. "GET IT OUT ALREADY!!!"
- I have completely irrational fears related to the cancer. For instance, both of us take multivitamins each day. Yesterday when I was about to offer him some vitamins, I hesitated, as if feeding him vitamins would make the cancer grow faster. (See, I said it was irrational.)
- I sometimes become angry at inanimate objects now. Yesterday we had to fill out a form that said, "Have you ever been diagnosed with cancer?" It had innocuous little "Yes" or "No" boxes that you could check. I felt like writing, "WHY YES!! WE HAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED, AND THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ASKING!!!"
I warned you they were random. ;)
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